As the 3rd year of my college life is reaching the midway point I have been able to sit back and simply reflect on what God has and is doing in my life and finally seeing how God uses a broken vessel like me to reach others. The best part of the whole thing is this, that it is all for His Glory, all for His name. That a life after Him means, for me, a life in the Word and life of loving His People as He loves them. This is such a simple and basic thing but at the same time it has been the only thing that life can be sustained and the only thing that brings true joy and purpose to life. I love God with my whole heart and after a times of trials and hardships I always know God has a reason for it and I have only seen Him strengthen me through it, not just for me, but for His Glory that more would know Christ. Praise Jesus
So of the 20 summers I have had in my this summer surpasses all in everything. This summer I have cried more, laughed more, loved more, mourned more, learned more, healed more, and have gotten closer to God more than ever before. All I can do is praise God after a summer like this and yearn for more this year. From learning how to spend time in the secret place with God and gain revelation of His heart, what is on it what He is thinking, what He is thinks about me...Amazing. Thank you Dan and Hilary and the rest of the internship group. I love you all and how faithful you are to God. That is just one thing and there is so much more. I love it. God is faithful always faithful, even when the darkness of the world seems to be crushing for the vision we have is so jaded by sin and the world, God is faithful to bring His Bigger Vision that we can not comprehend and brings us out of the trial we feel like is impossible at times.
The thing I am torn over and love the most is the fact it is all a choice. That is crazy to me. That I could of chose not to believe, to walk away, to say "NO God I will do it my own way," don't get me wrong I still do that :) but everyday it is a choice; either to say "Yes" to Him or "No" His will is always their for your life, I have learned, all He is waiting is for you to say "Yes" and God will come as you are because of His indescribable Mercy and God will cover you with His Grace to walk it out. I love it.
As this Junior year of college begins all I can do is say "yes: to God each day. To say yes to your will in my relationship, yes to my family, yes to the Bible study, yes to every area of my life.
I love music and I love this songs line, "Day by day, step by step, choice by choice, Yes by Yes, I'll say Yes, I will Go"
So summer is off with a bang right? Well not really and after finally realizing this, with the help of a great friend, that I am bored. It finally got it through me that the reason, or one of them, was that I just needed to give it all to God. Wait simple message right, that I here everyday right. Well yes it is but it is also something I need to do each day. So that I can hear God clearly, obey Him clearly, and Love Him.
And this is what I love how God put it in my mind, sealed the Deal, with a Simple song.
It is so like God, to to put the thing I needed to hear all this summer on a CD I have had and been listening to daily since summer began and here are those words. Read them :)
More than anything by Hillsong United, from A_cross the Earth: tear down the Walls
You knew us from the start
Our every moment
Though we fell apart
You chose to love us never letting go
You sent Your Son for us
He came into the world
With one desire
To lead us from our sins
Remove our failures
So we could meet with You and know ourselves as yours
In a world that tries to
Find a way in itself
Searching high and low
Looking for a meaning
We will hold to what we
Know is truth know is love
Life is found when we give
Ourselves all to You, Lord
Give it all give it all
To the One who's Life
Give it all give it all
To the One who's Life
Give it all give it all
To the One whose life
Saved mine
Our future in Your hands
Our lives with purpose
Sins now erased our Past behind us
Never looking back
We know ourselves as Yours
This we know we have a new life
We are Yours now and forever
In this life that we seek
To be with You more than anything
