So of the 20 summers I have had in my this summer surpasses all in everything. This summer I have cried more, laughed more, loved more, mourned more, learned more, healed more, and have gotten closer to God more than ever before. All I can do is praise God after a summer like this and yearn for more this year. From learning how to spend time in the secret place with God and gain revelation of His heart, what is on it what He is thinking, what He is thinks about me...Amazing. Thank you Dan and Hilary and the rest of the internship group. I love you all and how faithful you are to God. That is just one thing and there is so much more. I love it. God is faithful always faithful, even when the darkness of the world seems to be crushing for the vision we have is so jaded by sin and the world, God is faithful to bring His Bigger Vision that we can not comprehend and brings us out of the trial we feel like is impossible at times.

The thing I am torn over and love the most is the fact it is all a choice. That is crazy to me. That I could of chose not to believe, to walk away, to say "NO God I will do it my own way," don't get me wrong I still do that :) but everyday it is a choice; either to say "Yes" to Him or "No" His will is always their for your life, I have learned, all He is waiting is for you to say "Yes" and God will come as you are because of His indescribable Mercy and God will cover you with His Grace to walk it out. I love it.

As this Junior year of college begins all I can do is say "yes: to God each day. To say yes to your will in my relationship, yes to my family, yes to the Bible study, yes to every area of my life.

I love music and I love this songs line, "Day by day, step by step, choice by choice, Yes by Yes, I'll say Yes, I will Go"

So summer is off with a bang right? Well not really and after finally realizing this, with the help of a great friend, that I am bored. It finally got it through me that the reason, or one of them, was that I just needed to give it all to God. Wait simple message right, that I here everyday right. Well yes it is but it is also something I need to do each day. So that I can hear God clearly, obey Him clearly, and Love Him.

And this is what I love how God put it in my mind, sealed the Deal, with a Simple song.

It is so like God, to to put the thing I needed to hear all this summer on a CD I have had and been listening to daily since summer began and here are those words. Read them :)

More than anything by Hillsong United, from A_cross the Earth: tear down the Walls

You knew us from the start
Our every moment
Though we fell apart
You chose to love us never letting go
You sent Your Son for us


He came into the world
With one desire
To lead us from our sins
Remove our failures
So we could meet with You and know ourselves as yours


In a world that tries to
Find a way in itself
Searching high and low
Looking for a meaning
We will hold to what we
Know is truth know is love
Life is found when we give
Ourselves all to You, Lord


Give it all give it all
To the One who's Life
Give it all give it all
To the One who's Life
Give it all give it all
To the One whose life
Saved mine


Our future in Your hands
Our lives with purpose
Sins now erased our Past behind us
Never looking back
We know ourselves as Yours


This we know we have a new life
We are Yours now and forever
In this life that we seek
To be with You more than anything

"I Love it, that is EPIC" This is something I do say a lot and I mean it every time I say it. This is what it means to me...

E:Entering

P:Presence

I:In With

C:Christ

I say this for this reason...they are a lot of my friends now that are around the world following God and just trusting Him for it all...there are also many of my friends staying right here, by here I mean where God has for them now, even though they know they are meant to travel or do something else, they trust God and his plan for them. To all of you I say this EPIC.

This message is for each of you, it is a line from a song and I believe it to be part of all of your theme songs for life:

"There is a river a river that runs dry...my fountain of life that never runs dry."

This is to all of you who have given everything up for the sake of knowing His name, or inspiring me and cheering me on, though you may have never known it, I know God has so much for all of you.

You are all EPIC!!!

These past few weeks have been very interesting to say the least. A combination of the hustle and bustle of life, school, family, and worries about friends can cause most people to go crazy, but through it all the most amazing thing is that God is there. He is there to take all the stress and everything else that has no meaning for life and remove it and it is so good. There were many times where I would say to myself, "why am I worrying about this, it means nothing because God is in control," and that is so good, but the craziest thing with that is it caused me to think about his other children, and those on this campus, state and earth that do not know Him and it got me thinking, "God what do you want me to do to love on these people, to bring the truth, justice, passion, and love that has set me free to them," and that through all I am going through it means nothing because there are people who and the end of the age will not be with God, but instead lost forever and that hurts my heart. So what seemed to be stress was really a hidden blessing in showing me what really matters.

So over the last eight hours I haven't learned what God has been doing in me the last year and a half, but finally realized why he was doing it, and the best part is the answer is so simple He loves me and nothing can separate me from His love. I am listening to a song right now and chorus goes like this, "Do you know the way you move me" This is God speaking to us, to you, to me.

"I see every little desire...nothing goes unseen from my eye...every time you stare at me I see it...though it feels a little broken sometime I see...do you know the way you move me..."

This is the God I serve, a God that is moved every time I look toward Him, no matter how small, it moves Him, and I have finally started to understand just the smallest part of His love for me and...

nothing can separate me from His Love.

The question, "What am I doing here?" Used to plague my mind everyday of my life, that is until I found my purpose to, to love and serve God. That was about four years ago I committed my life to God, and I have never looked back. God has done so much in my life, from warning me about my parents divorce at the end of senior year, helping me through my struggles and ultimately providing the finances to come to PLU for my second year. Also after Onething this past December, I started to realize just how in love God is with me. How since birth God has had His hand on my life has just been made more evident to me than ever, for it was God who brought me from South Korea, it was God who brought me to PLU, it was God who gave it all up for me to have life, it was God who put special needs kids in Africa on my heart, it was God who has put every soul I see who is not saved on my heart. I writing this for one reason, that is to share what God has put on my heart over these last five to six weeks and that is the lost. Not the lost in another country or state but the lost in my own back yard, the lost in my own town, the lost in my wing. I barely go an hour without thinking, "how can they walk around not knowing what they are called to, how can they live without knowing a God is never stopping to gain just a glance of their eye, but even better their whole heart." My heart it torn. The only fear I have is that when Jesus comes back, will I see all those I love?

I have struggled in so many areas, lust, pride, religion, fear of man, more pride, timidity, unbelief...and so much more, and each time God has forgiven me, and has done all you see in me. I over came none of this on my own but with God only.

So I have resolved to give God my whole heart...every desire, everything that I am, every dream, every area of my life, I give all control to God, to love God with my whole heart, soul and mind.

I never really use this...this is basically a very short summary of the first four years of really starting to live life...